The Decision Is...

...I'm 90% sure we're going to find out on Wednesday, this Wednesday, if we're having a boy or a girl. I have debated and debated whether or not to find out (since we didn't find out with the first two), but finally, I think curiosity and the need to plan, has won out. I've done the surprise thing twice, and LOVED IT, but I am so curious to see what it's like to know what I'm having. That is one experience I have yet to...well, experience.

So this time, I am going to step out of my comfort zone (and Channing's...he's pretty reluctant) and find out what we're having. Maybe it will help us settle on a name. With our first two, we had boys names picked out years in advance. We had lots of trouble settling on girls names. This time, though, we don't have a solid name for either. We are closer to settling on a girl's name than a boy's, though.

On the subject of having a boy or a girl, most people assume that we are hoping for a girl. I hear it all the time...Don't you hope it's a girl? Are y'all trying for a girl? Stuff like that. Thing is, if I were being 100% honest, I would have to say that I'm kind of (selfishly) hoping it's another boy. You see, I've always envisioned myself as the mother of three boys. Don't get me wrong, I would love a little girl, it's just that the idea kind of freaks me out a bit. I know what to do with boys. I'm a boy kind of mom.

I love little girls, I just have a hard time envisioning myself with one. I mean, buying the clothes and dressing a little girl would be fun, but aside from that, I wouldn't have a clue what to do. Not only that, I worry about all the extra stuff that comes with little girls. Some little girls (of course, not all) can kind of be kind of...well...sassy. I was sassy, my sister was sassy, I know some sassy girls. I just don't know if I'm made to handle the sass, you know?

Then, there's the whole mother-daughter conflict thing. Most girls go through it with their moms, usually in the teenage years. I so don't want that. Of course, on the bright side of this, most girls end up being very close with their mothers in adulthood; definitely a plus.

Then there's the whole "dating thing". We plan to handle dating differently than most, and I can see a girl having more of a problem with it than a boy (of course, I could be wrong...I'm going from personal experience here).

Finally, I worry about the whole "marrying thing". With a boy, you can raise them to be leaders, to be good husbands. With a daughter, you have to trust that whoever she marries is going to be a good husband to her. That worries me (I know, like Channing reminds me...I have YEARS ahead of that, but my mind never stops churning).

If you are the parent of a daughter, please don't be offended. I mean NO offense AT ALL. I am just super nervous about the possibility of my comfort zone being shaken. If we are blessed with a little girl, we will be beyond thrilled. If we are blessed with a little boy, it'll be awesome too. Whatever the good Lord has decided to give us, we will gladly accept. I just can't wait to find out what that is!

What do you think? If you're the mother of a girl (or girls), does it freak you out that you could one day be the mother of a boy? If you are the mother of a boy (or boys), does it freak you out to think that you could one day be raising a little girl? Am I alone in this???